Saturday, February 23, 2013

How my dad died and I did not get to see it - where is Jesus? 1/2

This is how my father died.

It was about 10 years ago. At about 3am I was awakened by the persistent ringing of the phone. I was still sleepy and it was pitch-dark. I remember sitting up in bed and wondering if I was dreaming. It was real. When I picked up the phone, a woman's voice screamed at the other end. It was my sister. She was hysterical, screaming and sobbing at the same time. My dad had collapsed in bed, face down. She tried to turn him around and his tongue was sticking out. He was in seizure. I asked my sister to carry out CPR but she did not know how to and she did not dare touch my dad again. I asked her to get an ambulance and send him to the hospital immediately.

My daughter was just about 4 over month old then. I woke up my wife and asked her to prepare to bring our daughter to the hospital, getting ready for the worst scenario if my daughter were to see her grandfather for last time. Then, I went into an empty room, knelt down and did all the things I have been taught in church. I pleaded the blood of Jesus on the situation, prayed to God to save my father. I bound the devil. I spoke in tongues. I gave thanks to God. Then I went out of the room to meet with my wife and we took a cab to the hospital. Our car was in the workshop then so it is not the best time for an emergency. At the hospital, my two sisters were already in the hospital waiting room. We waited for about 15 minutes and a doctor came in, and said "sorry" and passed us a bag of my dad's things. I saw his ring, his wallet, etc in the bag. It dawned on me that that's the end. I wasn't prepared for that moment. Sorrow suddenly overwhelmed my heart, and tears flowed uncontrollably. I cried. That's about the 3rd time I ever cried in my life.

I never thought it would end like this. Between my dad and me. I always think there is more time. I always think I would get to see him at his death bed and talk to him one last time before he goes. I saw that in movies. But he went from a normal person to being dead so suddenly and I did not even say goodbye. I was told when the ambulance arrived, its door were jammed and they could not open it for quite a while. I believed they carried him out through the ambulance window. Precious time must have been wasted then. I have heard of people who shared that God informed them beforehand that their loved ones will be moving on to be with the Lord soon. And they have time to do something before their loved ones leave them. I did not have that.

I have a friend who faced a similar situation. She was praying for her mum to be cured from cancer but her mother died. Her relationship with God is affected. Have you faced an extreme challenge in life that shook your faith in God's goodness? You begin to think perhaps God isn't good. And our thoughts begin to depart from His Words.

Thank God in my case that did not happen. I did not blame God for what happened. Read the next post to find out why (cont in part 2).

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